Ok, I NEVER expected that I would be a blogger, but as Peter and I begin to talk about adoption, I would love to have a record of our thoughts and the journey if we go through with it. And if not, I can just talk about Thomas and Keller all the time!
Why would a busy working mother of two preschool age boys, with a husband who will be going back to school soon, consider adopting a child or two? Maybe I'm out of my mind, but I feel that way half the time anyway, so why try to change it.
Thomas is 5 and Keller is 2. They are the most wonderful boys and have made our life "Joyful Chaos". We wouldn't have it any other way. We've been discussing having another child for over a year now. Peter is happy with our two, and I am too, but I always wanted more. We've been trying to get pregnant for a total of about 7 months with no success. Is God trying to tell us something? I work in Labor & Delivery now and at first it made me want to be pregnant again. I loved being pregnant and the whole process of welcoming a new little one into the world. But lately there have been some women who have come in for routine deliveries and the babies have been born with minor problems. Would I be pushing my luck if we tried to have another one? Peter and I have always felt that if we had a child with a disability it would be b/c God trusted us to care for one of his special ones. But what if us not getting pregnant again is God saying He has other plans for us.
Peter and I have talked about adoption since we were first married, maybe before. I always thought that I would love to have two or three of my own and then adopt two that are biological siblings. Until just a couple days ago I felt like I wanted to be pregnant again. When I was pregnant with Keller I never thought that it would be my last pregnancy. I wanted to know when it would be my last so that I would treasure every moment of it. Well, I did treasure every moment of each of my pregnancies, and I think I would be ok with never being pregnant again. But I'm not ok with not having any more children. We've tried to get pregnant, and I don't want to go on Clomid like last time. I'm wondering if God is leading us on a different path. And I'm so excited about it!
